pictures of my times

This is Xolni Mhlonishwa with friends at a grand YMCA poetry finale

Ngakubona Ngakubeletha

Lolu thando
Ungitshele ukuthi uyang’thanda
Kodwa uyazi ngingum’thaka
Wang’tshela nokuthi uyithatha
Amthemba ami asethukile Ngawe.
Nami angisazizwa kahle
Ang’saqondi kwanzakalani

Ngithe ngibheka
Bese ngisemathandweni
Usungifake ntshi ngavela ngekhanda
Mina ngiyayisaba lento
Obaba bashiya amakhaya
Omama balndel’ obaba
Obaba Bashiya nemizi
Baya kohlal’ emikhukhwini
Hhey ayikho lento
Washo uM’Cele
Kwayakhe imibhalo
Wathi ayikho lento

Lolu thando
Lolu thando
Lenkanuko inhle imna……
Hawu Ngakhumbula
Lolu thando akusilo uthando
Loluthando luyinkanuko
Ushiywe uJoe ngezizathu ezithile
Uyabuya uzothi kye umithile
Uytabona uzitshela ukuthi ulay’thile
Wam’bhekisela phansi esenesineke
Nawe ubesemathandweni okokuqala
Kuwe bekuw’ N2 ungenasikhathi sokudlala
Wamphula inhliziyo wafisa ukukhala
Impintshi zakhe umazihamba uyasala
Bethembele kuwe okohlanya
Thina zimpintshi zakhe singomzala
Akukho zinyane lengwenya
Ladliwa yimvubu maqede kucwebe isiziba.
Sohlangan’eskhaleni kwaNtombela
Koqhuma anhlavana ezinye zofekela
Ang’zwani nonondindwa ozos’phatha

Lolu thando
Lolu thando
Llu thando belunjengoju lwezinyosi
Manje lunjengenhlaba
Lunjenge mvunge yezinyosi
Manje lunjengokuqhuma
Kwesibhamu ezindlebeni zam’
Lunjengokuhlabelela kwazinyoni
Manje lunjengokuduma kweZulu
Lunjengokuhaya kwezimbongi zothando
Manje linjengokuhhema
Kwezidakwa zotshwala
Lolu thando
Lolu thando belunjengamkha ekhethelo
Kundiza izinyo namavemvane ayimibalabala
Manje luxosha impukane kusale izibungu
Lunjengothingo lwenkosazana emvakwezimvula
Manje linjengokuqala kuka zamcolo
Lolu thando
Lolu thando kukhaliwe ngalo
Bachiphiza izinyembezi Zenjabulo
Nami ngenza.
Batshekedulisa okwamathole
Balilizela njengokungena komthimba
Mina Ngafunda kwezami, okungapheli kuyahlola
Ngabe sengidlulile Ku N2
Angabe ngisabhekwa
Nami angabe ngisabheka emuva
Izintaba azihlangani
Abantu bayahlangana
Abake abonana baphinde babonane
Thando injabulo yakho eyesikhashana
Nxa unenkanuko
Ngakubona Ngakubeletha

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Part of me wonders
Part of me regrets
Part of me accept
Part of me likes
But part of me arrest me, torture me
Scratch me, murder me.
Part of me is restless
Part of me bleeds
Part of me wants to lie dawn and die
If only I …… If only I
I only I could take
A step back and be,
If I could take
a step back to smile
A step back to shine
A step back to Kiss
And make up, amend
The broken I destroyed,
Shut Thunder between lightning
Shut storms between black clouds
If only I could wipe those tears
In your face I gave you and
Give Eternity of smile.
If only I could wipe those
Swollen wounds in your face
I gave and give you the face a child
If only I could give things
That I do not own to those
Who own the,
If I could swallow all the wrong I did
And bring to you the perfect image of my being
You should know that I love you a lot

Love

Today is anotherday
Day where lonely tunes are vicinity
Nearness of every thought
Every emotion
All that tears me apart

Still I stand and wakeup for the better
I stand still and tall
Emotionally, I’m strong
Wisely, I’m brave
I live on my own
Visionary, I’m the victor
One who wins is brave
Wise and Fit to face the tomorrow

Let me tell love
I tell, Because
I’m from and been there
I went through all the roughs, curves and escapement.
Love is kind, love heal
Love makes you better
Love is hope
Love supports emotionally
Love feels like nothing better
When you’re in love
It is your everything

When love hurt you the most
You curse, you swear,
You never been there, you wish
When you loose it,
You’ve lost the whole world,
When it walks away, you cry all tears
Wish you could die
When it betrays you
You dig the grave, wish to hid
When it swear to you
Wish you were deaf

And never been able to listen
When it break your heart
Wish you had a heart of stone
Never feel any pain or be broken
When it leaves you
Wish you could also leave
Why can’t I,
Why can’t you,
Why can’t we.
We are infected by fear
Our minds re still lost
One day at a time

Never stop yourself
Build no big walls in front,
Clear your way, walk in the light
Victors conquer the battle of life
Stand tall for the better
Face the world with pride
Fear no-one but god
Be the one who stand for ones self
Be the one who is positive
Believe in ones self
Winning will begin
In the day I say I can

I just felt in love

I just passed you
I felt so not comfortable
I heard my heart
Beat wonderfully with
Bit of a fright
It feels like merry-go-round,
It like I’m so scared
It like my inside world
Is shaking and moving
Shifting and sliding
Harmoniously and lovely

As I just passed you
I happen to see your eyes
They are innocent and bold
They are beautiful in their colour
As I just passed you
I saw your eyes
I couldn’t look at them
They shone and
You got me butterflies
I almost crippled my ankle and fall
The feeling is constative
The feeling is constant when
I see or think of you

I just felt in love
I fall in love when you……
When I ….. when you…
When I look at you
And you look back
I fall more in love
When I smile at you
And you smile back
I fall more in love
When you and me
Say nothing but
We smile like
Something is said
I fall more in love
Because when
I’m with you
You’re the only
Person who survive
And the rest of the world
Jut melt in my eyes
But you always there
I’m in love because
I aren’t got timetable or rather
Schedule to think of you
The feeling is omnipresent
Constantly happening
My world never felt so fine
Like the moment I’m with you
I’m devoted and
I just felt so genuinely
In love with you

Missing you like crazy

Sometimes at night,

when I lay down to sleep,

I embrace myself,

I start to think...

Then I imagine

That you lie beside me...

Hugs and kissesall over my body.

I wish youCould really be here,

Just to whisper,

"I love you," in my ear.

I would turn around and say,

"I love you, too.

"But will it ever be true?

So I turn around

And I wonder some more,

Still wanting your embrace,

So I close my eyes and picture your face...

I fall asleep dreaming of you.

In my dream it seems so true.

It's as if I can really feel

Your kisses against my lips...

Then my eyes pop open

And you're nowhere to be seen,

And I feel so lonely

Once AGAIN!